Sunday, June 30, 2024

你跟從我吧

 這些天在思考自己情緒起伏的情況,越發看到自己的問題,就是對接納和公平的看法。

小的時候,總覺得父母對自己和妹妹不公平,偏心妹妹,所以我對公平一直很敏感。同時也努力學習和表現,力圖通過我的表現來贏得父母的關注和讚賞,雖然我上了中國最好的大學讓我內心得到滿足,因為我認為我的表現已經足以勝過妹妹了,我向父母證明了我的價值。但是表現像一個枷鎖一樣,一直綑綁著我,讓我懼怕和擔心,一旦我的表現不好,就會失去我的一切,工作,甚至家庭。而周圍的每一個人都是我的競爭對手,我會嫉妒別人的長處,優點,成功,我會為別人的失敗幸災樂禍,雖然我不喜歡這些嫉妒或幸災樂禍的想法,但是它們卻如影隨形。

成為神的兒女之後,我把世上家庭中的爭競的運作心理帶進來,我會羨慕別人的屬靈恩賜,我會為我神對別人的恩待而抱不平,我會神對我的恩待而驕傲,有時也會幸災樂禍。

雖然神更新我的時候,我被神的愛所醫治,看到自己的不配,願意捨棄老我,單單為神、為榮耀神而活,但是過去的習慣還會影響我。

在學習7A的過程中,我意識到我過去對接納的看法一直與表現相連,雖然神讓我看到祂對我的無條件的接納,但是我還是潛意識中憑表現來接納自己和他人,其中的公平的觀念就是基於表現的判斷。而真正的醫治還是要回到神的愛中,我如果不能在神的愛中站立得穩,我就會在表現中掙扎,在與他人的比較中掙扎,會企圖通過勝過他人來證明自己值得被愛,通過得神的好處(禱告蒙垂聽、得醫治)來證明神是愛自己、青睞自己的。神也一次次地如此帶領我,昨天神用申命記33:12 “便雅悯说:’耶和华所亲爱的必同耶和华安然居住。耶和华终日遮蔽他,也住在他两肩之中。‘” “The beloved of the LORD shall dwell in safety by him; and the LORD shall cover him all the day long, and he shall dwell between his shoulders.” 神告訴我,我是祂beloved,我必與他安然居住,祂必與我同在。

今天,神又用約翰福音21:22 “耶稣对他说:’等到时候何干跟从!‘” 向我表明祂絕對的主權和對我的呼召,不要與他人比較,不要質疑神是否公平,單單跟隨耶穌。

Friday, April 19, 2024

The Bookends of the Christian Life 2

 

Jerry Bridges and Bob Bevington, The Bookends of the Christian Life (Wheaton, IL: Crossway, 2009).

We usually associate grace with the first bookend, thinking of verses like Ephesians 2:8: “For by grace you have been saved through faith.” But grace in the New Testament is actually much broader—it includes all the blessings God has given us through Christ. Those blessings can generally be classified under two categories: privileges and power.

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Now that we have clarified the role of the Holy Spirit, you might ask, “What’s our role?” It is the same as it was with the first bookend—faith. Here, however, it’s the action of leaning our books on the second bookend. And as we’ve already observed, faith involves both renunciation and reliance. We have to first renounce all confidence in our own power and then rely entirely on the power of the Holy Spirit. We must be enabled, not merely helped

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The Bible teaches that the Spirit applies his power to our lives in two different ways. The first we call his synergistic work, which refers to occasions that combine our effort with his enabling power. But this isn’t a pure synergism, as if we and the Spirit each contributed equal power to the task. Rather, we work as he enables us to work, so we use the expression qualified synergism.

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The second way the Spirit applies his power to our lives is his monergistic work, in which he works alone in us and for us but completely independent from us. The monergistic work of the Holy Spirit begins when he gives us new life by causing us to be born again (John 3:5–6; Titus 3:5–6).

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The sixteenth-century Heidelberg Catechism, which unfortunately is little known among believers today, provides a framework for understanding the monergistic work of the Spirit. It’s structured around three words: guilt, grace, and gratitude. These words refer to our guilt, God’s grace, and our response of gratitude.

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There are also important differences. The first bookend represents his work for us and outside of us. It’s totally finished and complete. We can never become more righteous or less righteous in our standing before God once we’re clothed with the perfect, completed righteousness of Christ. The second bookend represents his work not only for us but in us. This work, whether monergistic or synergistic, is always a process. It will never be finished and complete in this life.

There is another difference, one that is often misunderstood in ways that can have dire consequences. It involves our response to the bookends, the answers to questions such as, “What do I do? What’s my responsibility? What part do I play?” Our response to the first bookend is always passive; our part is simply to receive it. The same is true with the monergistic work of the Holy Spirit in the second bookend. But the synergistic work of the Holy Spirit in the second bookend requires an active response from us; there is something we are responsible to do.

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So where does our own responsibility come into the picture? In responding to the synergistic work of the Holy Spirit in the second bookend, where do we draw the line between what we are to do and what he is to do? Does such a line even exist? 

Throughout the New Testament, the answers to these questions are consistent: we’re both responsible and dependent.

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We have a responsibility to respond to each means of grace the Spirit provides. We’re to participate in using them to our spiritual advantage. The term spiritual disciplines is used to describe this process and to emphasize our responsibility

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As we practice these disciplines, it’s of paramount importance that we keep two truths in mind. First, the disciplines themselves are not the source of spiritual power. Only the Holy Spirit is. The disciplines are his instruments to transmit his power. Second, the practice of the disciplines doesn’t earn us favor with God or secure his blessings

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Daily Communion with God

The first means of grace we will look at is the spiritual discipline often referred to as the quiet time but which might better be called daily communion with God....Instead of simply reading a chapter or two of the Bible, we need to reflect on and pray over what we read, asking him to reveal what he has for us in the Scriptures before us. Our reading becomes a conversation, a process of talking to God and listening to him. We may ask him questions as we seek a deeper meaning or a specific application of a given passage. We interact with a living Person. And in so doing, we experience communion with God


The Gospel

Within the scope of our communion with God, the most important means of grace is the gospel. Once again we turn to 2 Corinthians 3:18. .... Basically Paul was saying that it’s through beholding the glory of the Lord that we’re transformed more and more into his image. In what way do we behold his glory? We get the answer when we read this verse in context (2 Corinthians 3:8–4:6). It’s the gospel that reveals Christ’s glory. Therefore, to behold his glory we must gaze into the gospel by faith. As we do this, the Spirit will transform us more and more into his likeness.....the gospel is the primary instrument of spiritual transformation.

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We should bathe our hearts and minds in the gospel as part of our daily communion with God. To use an increasingly popular expression, we should “preach the gospel to ourselves every day.


All of Scripture

We respond to this means of grace by consistently bringing our minds under the renewing and transforming influence of Scripture.....We need to regularly listen to Bible-centered preaching, and we need to diligently pursue Bible study and Scripture memorization, all as a means of grace pointing us to communion with God.

Prayer

Prayer is another instrument the Holy Spirit uses as a means of grace to strengthen us.....Our response to this means of grace is obvious: we’re to practice the spiritual discipline of prayer by regularly asking him to work in us and enable us to work. This includes daily periods of extensive prayer as well as brief, spontaneous prayers when we’re in the heat of the battle.

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The more prayer, the more dependency; the more dependency, the more power. The source of power is not the prayer; it is the Holy Spirit, who uses prayer as a means of grace through which he provides the power.

Circumstances

A fourth instrument the Holy Spirit uses is the circumstances he allows or brings into our lives.

Our response should be to continually reflect on the various circumstances that come our way, especially the difficult ones, and seek to profit from them according to his will.

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This concept of communion may be easy enough to see and understand intellectually, but we need more than intellectual assent and understanding; we need application. We need this truth to become our daily practice and our heart’s desire. For that to happen, we are dependent on the enabling power of the Holy Spirit as we work diligently at the spiritual disciplines. 

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Chapter 8 The help of the divine encourager

Our gratitude for the love that provided the first bookend encourages us to depend on the second for strength to obey the commandments, including the greatest ones—to love God with all our heart, soul, mind, and strength, and to love our neighbor as ourselves

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He refuses to leave home in the morning until a deep awareness of God’s love for him in the gospel is renewed. He works at this each morning through the spiritual disciplines of Bible meditation and prayer, but he’s dependent on the Holy Spirit all the while. Since he started this habit, he is often encouraged by grace and strengthened for the daily battle against his functional saviors

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We attempted to use our knowledge of “what I should do” to fight our sinful desire of “what I want to do.” We assumed that if the argument of our mind prevailed, we would do the right thing.

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The Expulsive Power of a New Affection

Chalmers’s point is that we must battle desire with desire. Whichever desire is the strongest will always determine the outcome....So to win the battle against sin, we must strengthen and encourage our godly desires. How? By simultaneously growing in our awareness of: (1) our sin—our knowledge of the moral will of God and how far short we fall daily; and (2) God’s love—the grace and blessings purchased by Christ in the gospel.

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As we see how incomparably desirable God is, he becomes our superior satisfaction, our all-surpassing treasure (Matthew 13:44). Our appetite for sin grows weak by comparison, and we expel it because there’s not room enough in our heart for both. Our affection—our love for God—is then expressed in personal obedience and deepened relationship with the Father and the Son through the Holy Spirit.

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Enjoying the Relationship

The Westminster Confession of Faith provides a succinct and extraordinary statement of our purpose in life: “The chief end of man is to glorify God and enjoy him forever.”.... As believers, we’re meant to enjoy God in the here and now as well as in heaven. And we enjoy him when we experience him in an active and intimate relationship of communion.

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Because of our union with Christ, the Father loves us the same way he loves the Son,and the glory the Father has given to the Son is in turn given to us by the Son. Therefore, the glorifying love that exists within the Trinity is shed upon us and shared by us in such a way that we are capable of experiencing communion with the triune God that is enjoyable beyond measure.

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the greatest source of encouragement in our battle against sin is often our Spirit-driven desire to experience this enjoyment. You can’t enjoy sin and God at the same time.

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The Promises of God

In his role as our Encourager, the Spirit frequently leads us to specific promises of God. For the most part, when the Spirit guides us to God’s promises, they’re for use in our immediate or near future. They provide us with assurance that when we take a step of faith, as our weight shifts forward and our foot descends, God’s grace and truth will arrive in time to support our foot as it lands

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Though the Spirit often gives us momentary strength through the promises of God, the Spirit also directs us to promises to equip us for events that may not take place right away. When this occurs, we need to collect these promises so we can have easy access to them in a future battle. Journaling is a good way to do this. But we believe the best method may very well be Scripture memorization.

Chapter 9, Gospel Enemy #3: Self-Reliance

Self-reliance toward God is a dependence on our own power, not the power of the Holy Spirit. Self-reliance is to the second bookend what self-righteousness is to the first.

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What’s wrong with this kind of self-reliance? Everything. First of all, it doesn’t work. The Christian life is a spiritual life lived in a spiritual world. Our human strength, be it physical power or willpower, is inadequate. We need divine strength that comes from a divine source—the Spirit of God. When we attempt to live the Christian life in our own strength, we head in the direction of legalism, pride, frustration, or ungodly living. It can even lead to a shipwrecked faith.

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Self-reliance, like self-righteousness and persistent guilt, is sin. These gospel enemies entice us to redirect our dependencies to objects of faith outside the bookends, such as our strength, our righteousness, or our functional saviors.

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What was the object of Peter’s dependence? It was his willpower. “I will never fall away; I will not deny you.” He assumed he had the strength to stand where others would fall. 

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Isn’t it ironic that the more God-given natural abilities we have, the more prone we are to rely on them rather than on God? 

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One way the Spirit of God helps free us from self-reliance is by revealing our sinfulness while simultaneously leading us back to the bookends.

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Chapter 10, Leaning on the second bookend

Focal point #1: our desperate weakness

Likewise for us, seeing ourselves as weak and helpless is a necessary step in shifting our dependence from our strength to his. We must stop relying on our own power before we’re able to receive power from the Holy Spirit.

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Focal point #2: The reliable power of the Holy Spirit

Think of it this way: we wage war in the power of another. It’s a spiritual war, and the power is that of the Spirit of Almighty God. 

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Focal point #3: Rejection of Self-reliance

If you take even a cursory overview of your life with an eye to self-reliance, we expect you’ll quickly detect it. If you don’t, simply place your last twenty-four hours under the light of the following questions: 

How many times was I consciously aware of relying on the power of the Holy Spirit, instead of on myself? 

How many times did I acknowledge God’s sovereign hand and power sustaining my every endeavor—voluntary or involuntary, conscious or unconscious?

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To kill poison ivy, or self-reliance, you have to get it by the roots. The tap-root of self-reliance is ultimately found in the statement, “I will be as God.” Adam and Eve embraced it as the motive for the original sin (Genesis 3:5–6). Long before that, Lucifer (Satan) said essentially the same thing: “I will make myself like the Most High” (Isaiah 14:13–14). This constitutes a declaration of independence from God. It’s cosmic treason. But this attitude isn’t limited to the likes of Adam, Eve, and Lucifer. It’s at the root of the remaining sin nature in all of us. All three gospel enemies spring forth from this common root. It’s the essence of our self-reliance with its unspoken claim that I can do it myself. It’s behind our ever-present bent toward self-righteousness, as well. If I’m my own god, I determine what’s right and wrong, and I declare myself good enough. Even persistent guilt has its root in this statement, because it’s a refusal to acknowledge and embrace the solution God has provided for our sin dilemma, as if to say, I will be my own judge. 

Therefore, the focus of the battle with all three gospel enemies, and self-reliance in particular, should center on making a deliberate, repeated counter-declaration: “God is God, and I am not.” And once we make that pronouncement each day, we must pray for opportunities and strength to apply it.

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Taking a lesson from both Mickey and the Bible, our daily war plan calls for us to kill self-reliance and replace it by planting and cultivating the daylilies of humility and the yellow irises of godliness.

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Why is a fresh view of the cross needed in order to cultivate humility? When we see Jesus there bearing our sin, we also see exactly what we deserve from God for each sin we commit. Then and only then can we begin to honestly assess ourselves. The One whose flesh was nailed to the cross should have been us: “He was pierced through for our transgressions” (Isaiah 53:5, nasb). At the cross we see the holiness of God as well—his perfect justice served by unleashing his undiluted wrath against sin, as he punished and rejected the sin bearer in our place. 

As we revisit the cross and linger there in meditation focused on its unending and unfathomable wonders, we cultivate a thick patch of the daylilies we call humility, and when this happens, there’s no longer any room for the pride that leads to the desire to be like God.

 Now for the irises. We define godliness as “the attitude of regarding God in everything all the time.” We display this attitude when, no matter what we do, we “do all to the glory of God” (1 Corinthians 10:31). The godly person is a God-centered, God-glorifying, God-esteeming person. The opposite of godliness is ungodliness, the disregarding of God. All expressions of pride are rooted in ungodliness, because you must first disregard God before you can be prideful. So for us, the battle for godliness is the linchpin of our war plan. 

How do we fight for godliness? It starts the same way we fight for humility—by seeing the cross as the overarching message and meaning of life and the universe. From there we must discipline our minds to practice the presence of God, “and take every thought captive to obey Christ” (2 Corinthians 10:5).

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The bookend worldview

Why is the bookends worldview so useful and worthwhile? Because it provides a constant awareness of the two most fundamental realities that apply to our lives. It reminds us that we’re 100 percent dependent on a source of righteousness and strength that resides outside ourselves, yet we remain 100 percent responsible for the placement of each of our books on the bookshelf of our lives. 

Jerry Bridges and Bob Bevington, The Bookends of the Christian Life (Wheaton, IL: Crossway, 2009).

Thursday, April 18, 2024

The Bookends of the Christian Life 1

 節選自“The Bookends of the Christian Life", 

Jerry Bridges and Bob Bevington, The Bookends of the Christian Life (Wheaton, IL: Crossway, 2009).

Chapter 1

In this context, faith involves both a renunciation and a reliance. First, we must renounce any trust in our own performance as the basis of our acceptance before God. We trust in our own performance when we believe we’ve earned God’s acceptance by our good works. But we also trust in our own performance when we believe we’ve lost God’s acceptance by our bad works—by our sin. So we must renounce any consideration of either our bad works or our good works as the means of relating to God. 

Second, we must place our reliance entirely on the perfect obedience and sin-bearing death of Christ as the sole basis of our standing before God—on our best days as well as our worst.

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For Paul, justification was not only a past event; it was also a daily, present reality. So every day of his life, by faith in Christ, Paul realized he stood righteous in the sight of God—he was counted righteous and accepted by God as righteous—because of the perfectly obedient life and death Christ provided for him. He stood solely on the rock-solid righteousness of Christ alone, which is our first bookend.

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Every day we must re-acknowledge the fact that there’s nothing we can do to make ourselves either more acceptable to God or less acceptable. Regardless of how much we grow in our Christian lives, we’re accepted for Christ’s sake or not accepted at all.

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Because we have a natural tendency to look within ourselves for the basis of God’s approval or disapproval, we must make a conscious daily effort to look outside ourselves to the righteousness of Christ, then to stand in the present reality of our justification. Only then will we experience the stability that the first bookend is meant to provide.

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Chapter 2

We can trace three steps in the woman’s experience. She’d become deeply convicted of her many sins through her initial encounter with Jesus. She then received from him the assurance that her sins were forgiven. These two steps—deep conviction of sin and assurance of forgiveness—prompted the third: love and gratitude on her part. The dinner at Simon’s house provided an occasion for her to publicly display these feelings. She displayed much love because she’d been forgiven so much. There’s an important lesson here for all of us. Genuine love for Christ comes through (1) an ever-growing consciousness of our own sinfulness and unworthiness, coupled with (2) the assurance that our sins, however great, have been forgiven through his death on the cross. Only love that’s founded on both of these foundations can be authentic and permanent. If we find we lack love for the Savior, one or both of these prerequisites are deficient.

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The ointment was merely an outward symbol of a life now dedicated to Jesus. She was forgiven much, and she loved much; she gave not only her ointment but her heart as well. When we’ve truly experienced the gospel, far from producing a “why bother to grow?” attitude, it has just the opposite effect. It motivates us to lay down our lives in humble and loving service out of gratitude for grace.

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In this good news, Isaiah heard the gospel. Like the sinful woman, Isaiah also experienced both the deep conviction of his sin and the assurance of God’s gracious forgiveness. Isaiah’s response was also similar. When he heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send, and who will go for us?” he responded, “Here am I! Send me” (verse 8). Isaiah gave his life in service to God. He essentially offered himself as a blank check, to be filled in as God saw fit.

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In his own words: “In order that I may . . . be found in [Christ], not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which comes through faith in Christ, the righteousness from God that depends on faith.” Paul utterly renounced his own righteousness as a means of attaining a right standing with God; instead, he relied solely on the shed blood and righteousness of Christ.

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Remember, we need the gospel not only as a door into an initial saving relationship with Christ, but also as the first bookend to keep our daily lives from becoming a performance treadmill. 

Chapter 3: Enemy #1, self-righteousness

When we respond by resting in the assurance that we’re successful enough, we harbor self-righteousness, which is Gospel Enemy #1. And when we respond with anxiety over the inadequacy of our performance, we harbor persistent guilt, Gospel Enemy #2.

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The self-righteousness we refer to in this book goes deeper; it’s a self-righteousness toward God. It’s as if we tell him, “I’m doing so well; surely I deserve your blessing. You owe it to me.”

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But we essentially make this very statement whenever we depend on our own performance to merit any or all of the following six “A”-mazing blessings of God: 
Approval by God—his favor; 
Access to his holy presence—his fellowship; 
Acceptance into his family—his community; 
Admittance into heaven—his eternal life; 
Appropriation of our daily provisions—his earthly sustenance; 
Ability to live the Christian life—his strength.

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“If you died today and God asked you why he should let you into his heaven, what would you say?”
Suppose you have an urgent prayer request and God were to ask, “Why should I answer your prayer?” How would you answer?


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there’s no difference between trusting God for salvation and trusting him for answers to prayer; in both cases we’re dependent on Christ’s righteousness alone.

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Even longstanding believers can fall into a similar trap—not with regard to our salvation but with regard to our perception of our standing with God. 


So every time we approach God in prayer, worship, or any other spiritual discipline, we must see our résumé only as he sees it—overlaid by Christ’s perfect résumé.

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There are two categories of self-righteous believers. The first is the self-disciplined moralistic believer who partially embraces the gospel but feels deserving of one or more of those six “A”-mazing blessings on the basis of his or her religious performance

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Making God’s love contingent on our action is a sad but common misunderstanding in the church. Remember, a believer’s union is never in jeopardy. For God’s love is an eternal love that had no beginning, that shall have no ending; that cannot be heightened by any act of ours; that cannot be lessened by anything in us. While our sense of communion with God may fluctuate, his love does not grow and diminish. The wrath of God against the sin of saints was completely exhausted on the cross.

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There’s a second category of self-righteous believers. They also partially embrace the gospel, but they constantly live under a sense of guilt due to an acute awareness that the expectations they set for themselves are considerably under-fulfilled. They’re displeased with themselves and assume God is also displeased. Their attitude can be deceptive: outwardly it may look like humility. But persistent guilt is a child of self-righteousness toward God. It’s the belief that we should find our source of righteousness within ourselves, though we’re painfully aware of our shortfall, as if to say, “I can do better, and I should do better”— emphasis on I. Like moralistic believers, these also border on unbelief. Only God knows their heart and whether they truly place their faith in the righteousness of Christ.

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We must continually battle these two gospel enemies, self-righteousness and persistent guilt. They represent a form of unbelief that may not send us to hell but will rob us of fruitfulness, joy, and the assurance that God is for us and not against us, both now and forevermore.

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Chapter 4 Enemy #2 Persistent Guilt

Our conscience serves two important purposes for our good, just as pain does for our body. First, it sends off warning signals when we’re about to go astray. This should remind us to renew our dependence on God’s enabling strength, the second bookend (as we’ll explore later). Second, when we sin, our conscience declares us guilty. This should remind us to renew our dependence on the cure for our sin-sickness, the righteousness of Christ crucified, the first bookend.

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Don’t avoid the voice of your conscience; instead deliberately and regularly remember your past sin and acknowledge your present sin. Then return to the cross, the epicenter of the unfathomable greatness of Christ’s merit. Don’t be reluctant to feel thirst; it points you to living water where you can cherish every drop of it he gives for what it really is—precious beyond comparison. And when those old guilt pangs stab at you, thank them for doing you a great service by reminding you afresh that there’s a Deliverer who has already delivered you, a Healer whose stripes have already healed you (Colossians 1:13–14; Isaiah 53:5). And because of this, Christ is your all-surpassing treasure.

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In the parable of the Pharisee and the tax collector in Luke 18:9–14, the tax collector took a far different approach from the self-righteous Pharisee. Trembling because of his guilt, he stood far off, eyes to the ground. He beat his breast and acknowledged his sinfulness. And he begged for God’s mercy. Remarkably, Jesus declared him justified! And as if that good news were not astonishing enough, there’s more. Jesus declared that in the future this tax collector would be exalted! And for what? Begging for mercy? Yes! Because his begging was a heartfelt acknowledgment of his sinfulness in the light of God’s holiness; it was a burning expression of his desperate need of mercy—the very thing the gospel provides. His begging did not nullify the grace of God but exalted it.

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Chapter 5

In this chapter, we offer three focal points for dependence-shifting: (1) seeing ourselves as desperately lost sinners; (2) seeing the righteousness of Christ as all-sufficient for us daily; and (3) seeing and rejecting our functional saviors

As God turns up the dimmer switch and pours more and more light on your life, you’ll be shocked to see you’re far more sinful than you ever dared to imagine

As we’ve seen, there’s a righteousness that does deserve God’s blessing. It’s a righteousness whose source is outside of us, not dependent on us.


These “functional saviors” can be any object of dependence we embrace that isn’t God. They become the source of our identity, security, and significance because we hold an idolatrous affection for them in our hearts. They preoccupy our minds and consume our time and our resources

And functional saviors take many forms. For some, it takes the form of a self-destructive addiction. For others it could be something that otherwise would be good or harmless if they weren’t dependent on it—activities or things. It could be television, family, friends, sleep, caffeine, partying, not partying, eating, not eating. It could be career, fashion, investment accounts, approval of others, material possessions, peer status, good looks, recreation, spectator sports, having a clean house, or working out at the gym. It could be just about anything, including moderate living, asceticism, philanthropic giving, or even ministry.